12/17/2013 by syrbal-labrys
I have been asked to submit what I think is my best post of the year for inclusion in a kind of blogroll, the Jon Swift Memorial Roundup. Holy cats, I have NO idea what my “best” means. The very question puts me in turmoil!
As I’ve said, I sometimes feel even more than the normal existential sense of futility when I blog.
The posts that do seem to get attention, sometimes picked up by really big and excellent blogs, never seem to me to be what feels like my best — they seem to me more like off the cuff reactions.
The posts that tear me up, rip at the edges of my very life seem to touch nobody but me!
I realized that if I kept ruminating on the differences between what is popular and what is my personal best, I would again not participate. So I scrolled through my archives, reading at random…and selected this one. IS it my best? How the hell would I know? Sometimes, one has to commit to the uncertainty and be true to oneself. So hey, off the high board, eh?