12/10/2013 by syrbal-labrys
I note my statistics over here are depressing. Lucky to get two or three hits a day with a high of about ten. I know my life likely seems terribly boring to most folks; crisis and cursing “sells” better even when it is free to read! So, while I thought blog-splitting was a decent idea to keep the hard-core rantage away from the more gentle pursuits of my life, apparently nobody gives a damn about gentle anything.
So, I may as well let my secondary blog run down and out by year’s end. To be brutally honest, I don’t feel I really have much original content to add even here. My opinions are often the same as the general “left coast” ideas seen around the bloggerific world. And when my opinions are not the same, they just piss people off — I diverge from some feminist ideals apparently, and religiously I piss off EVERYone in the spectrum. (I fit in the desired pigeon-holes about as well as Cinderella’s step-sisters fit in Cindy’s shoes. And I am NOT chopping off my toes, thanks.)
The real question becomes whether I should spend any more time blogging at ALL, doesn’t it? It isn’t as if I don’t have enough offline work needing done to keep me busy. And there are bigger, better voices than mine in plenty.
I grow more and more tired of observing and sniping at what the “patch” there talks about…it really does seem that the stupidest, loudest, and most selfish forces in the world are winning. I used to feel one had to stay engaged — it was necessary to watch, to fight, to shout, to attempt to stop the tide of wrongness. But I don’t feel I am accomplishing much of that any more. I am pretty much depressed to speechlessness by the very ‘enduring’ quality of the actual Operation Clusterfuck in Afghanistan —we basically let a corrupt self-important puppet of our own making dictate the terms of us getting the fuck OUT of there? WTunholy FUCK?
If I can’t find some way to feel relevant to a world that I feel less and less desire to participate with, I may let both blogs go. This one starts having ads again in February; so I may try to hang on to at least use up the ad-free I paid for, but maybe this old lady just needs to go weed her garden and say ‘fuck it all’ to the rest?